be thankful

i need to learn that….
anyone interested to do volunteering work?
club rainbow? its for youths..
on the lookout for ways to contribute back to society!!!

stay positive!

because…. i have something to look forward to
a date between me & laogong – which i hope will really come true..

have been toying with the idea of changing job..
but i also know that its a fake image – the grass is always greener on the other side.
and what makes me think that in this economy, i can find another job?
also, i am not going to let my first job after graduation last only half a yr.
even if i’m not concerned about what other employers may think,
i feel that i’d have let myself down by leaving without learning anything.
the irony is, i really have not learnt anything i wanted so far.
and i dunno when exactly i will learn the things i want to..
all i can say is. bite my tongue and stay on.
time will pass by very fast. the plan is due in one years time
and i have to save up a lot of money in the mean time!!!

this sounds like i’m getting married or buying a hse or whatsoever. haha.
but its not la, its just something i love to do…
something which wouldn’t be possible in the future.
with commitments, responsibilities etc.
this kind of thing must do it when i’m still young!
and to make it perfect, i will be going for it with laogong!

told my mom about it just now on the mrt..
my sis and i treated my parents to the movie, 2012!
my mom was like…. =.=” u really dun like ur job so much?
i know lor.. she must think i’m crazy.
think about the 8 to 6, the long lunch, the gym facilities, the slackness..
with my current salary, which will go up upon confirmation,
(IF i get confirmed.. speaking of that.. i also sian)
though i think it shouldn’t be a problem? hopefully.
i think i’m probably weird. i have no idea what i want in life.

the bottom line is, i have a plan and i’m looking forward to it
i have been traveling alot this year. but all with friends.
the only trip with laogong was to bangkok.
i miss traveling with him!!!

so tired now.. going to sleep soon!

guessed it :(

had a discussion with my boss at work today.
although i like to paint a beautiful picture about psychologists, how positive we all are.
at the end of the day, it seemed more like fake-ness than anything else.
because when the positive-ness are needed the most, the negative-ness are protrayed eventually.
it just takes a few slips of tongue to know the truth behind the smile.
but well, to protect myself, say it as denial or whatsoever, i think its utter crap.
how on earth would i have gotten my grades all these yrs otherwise?

i’m tired after the lag of HK…. luckily tmr’s the end of the week! hurray to long wkends!!!
may the search begin after my yr end trip! or maybe later la..

blink of an eye

i’m back from hongkong! the 4 days there really really flew by..
actually if you ask me what we actually did there, i don’t really recall much.
but i know that i had a great time catching up with cwen & lihui.
the next such chance would be during the SHE concert (whenever they are coming)

what exactly did we do in hk? the 3 more famous attractions are going into shenzhen, avenue of stars, the peak. though we stayed near ladies market, we did not really walk much there. the weather was too coldddd and we basically just drifted here & there?

ate soup noodles for lunch after reaching hk before heading to the snoopyworld to take photos on day 1. followed by walking around the hotel area, da pao-ing food back to the hotel to eat.

day 2 was an early day and we headed towards shenzhen. the customs was pretty crowded BUT we headed down the foreigners lane hehehe. meaning we skipped pretty much all the queues! shopped in shenzhen for the day.. i only changed SGD$50 there and i still have $15 left? goes to show how much shopping i actually accomplished haha. after that was steamboat dinner at cafe de coral! it was yummy really.. because we only had one chicken pie & 1 portegese egg tart for brunch (more of breakfast actually lol). den we went to wash our hair in one of the hair salon.. bout $9? quite worth it la.. hehe. more shopping in ladies market before going back to our hotel for the night.

day 3 was spent at the peak, sky terrace, madame tussuad, eating hageen diaz and basically slacked. headed to wan chai for a tea session, which lasted for 3 hours chatting about many things under the sun
thinking back, i’m really happy! haha.. afterwhich we headed to avenue of stars and proceeded to wait for the symphony of lights.

day 4′s the best! headed to buy our egg tarts before singing K hehehe. slack bah!

tired yet excited

i’m so tired today… plus i was hungry. + i can’t carry my gym clothes to town can i?
haha. self-delusional… i went for ytf instead of gym. eating yummy hot food w soup!
this month has been a killer to my fitness plans. HECK!!!

heading to city hall later to meet jc friends for dinner in shabu shabu, marina square.
nv eaten there before, but i expect yummy buffet.. hehe.
one buffet per week. enough to pack back my 0.8% lost last month. sads.
its to celebrate shuxin & yt’s birthday!

go home pack…. and tmr’s the day! BATAM!
with siling, ah ni & sheena… must remind myself to bring passport haha!
looking forward to a slack & enjoyable weekend..
nua, gossip and enjoy the spa.. hehehe.. and and and….
we get to eat A&W!!!!! ancient treats
i forgot what else siling said they have there though..

guilt….. for throwing laogong all alone in singapore mugging for his exams!
but again i figured… he needs to concentrate. and prob he can do it btr w/o me around

doubts

i hate it to be doubted.
esp when it comes from the person whom u thought would trust u the most.

maybe its not hate. maybe its just sad.

i need moolah~

sob i am broke. like totally.
this months expenditure:
1. batam trip – $142
2. ah min’s present – $100+ (cannot disclose amt haha)
3. laogong’s present – unknown yet
4. jame’s wedding – $80 to $100 (dunno how much to give yet)
5. hongkong trip – $200 for hotel + dunno how much more for food, shopping & transport

i have been camping home for the past 5 to 6 wkends or more.
to save up money for aussie. but i think end up…
i dun even have enough due to unforeseen costs popping up!!!

i think i have to pluck up my courage to get my savings from my mom.. lol.
and put back more with bonuses and next yr’s salary!!!

blah blah~

BLAH. no i did not jog at all as hoped to in the previous post.
in fact, i ended up eating more than usual..
blame the rain and the buffet dinner.

so sleeeepppppyyyyyyyyyyyyy *YAWNS*

progress

slowly but surely making progress..
0.8% in one month, though i’ve been hoping for better progress, i think its good enough.
given the fact that i have not been to the gym for 2 weekends..
plus not tt much effort in the office gym recently..

but it may have been offset by the mcdonalds i have eaten….
on sunday & tuesday + pizza on mon & kenny rogers today. SHIT.
jogging for the rest of the week. outdoors or not, it doesn’t matter anymore.
no time for gym the rest of this week at work anw..

it has been a gloomy week so far..
with one colleague’s father passing away and another colleague’s grandmother passing away..
attended the wake for one tdy and attending the wake for the other tmr..
hope both are coping well..
sometimes the idea of shen lao bing shi gets to me..
while its unavoidable, its something really scary..

hence the week suddenly but surely became shorter.
what with afternn out of office tdy, plus tmr lunch out of ofc AND friday afternn with a financial management course.. SHORT WEEK (feeling wise la)

haven been performing up to standard at work recently..
making mistakes which could be avoided and these are really really straightforward things.
like names, dates and such.
PLUS i SWEAR i checked through every single thing before i sent
and i still can make mistakes……… ARGH.
no one’s pin pointing at me la.. its just a really inadequate feeling to have..
like a blur sotong (which i know is not acceptable at work) hais.

but i still think tt psychologists make good bosses..
coz they are super encouraging & don’t scold people.. POSITIVE PSY!
after hearing about siling’s and sheena’s bosses, i think i shld cherish what i have..
but then again…. career wise, i may have to rethink sooner or later i guess..

this post is making me feel even gloomier…
something more positive.. with singapore’s GDP having improved for the 2nd & 3rd quarter 09..
i am definitely crossing my fingers for a bonus end of this year…
my finances have been ridiculous to the extent that i am bursting my budget for the month!!!
which is like irritatingly bad (opps back to negative tots again).
BATAM, HK & AUSSIE coming right up. omg. dunno to be excited or to be sad…

lets be EXCITED!
gosh i’m so sleepy. btr get to sleep like now.

hungry….

exercising always makes me super hungry
my stomach was growling when i was at gym yest lunch time.
and it is growling right now becoz i went gym just now.
i tot my dinner was filling enough!!!
becoz of my hunger yesterday, i ate too full for lunch…
so when i met up with siling ah ni & sheena for steamboat buffet, i WASN’T hungry.
RAWR. while the choice wasn’t alot, it was a great catching up with them!

plans for batam on 14th/15th nov. LOOKING FORWARD!
talked about it over mc cafe coffee..
first time having it, not bad but starbucks seems to be more worth it (sizing wise).
i hope we would really be going )
just thinking of the spa, chilling out & a&w makes me happy all over!
it shld coz about 200+ per pax (hoping its not too ex)

my weight loss progress is super slow.
i think i’m just impatient…..
at least my office pants ain’t so tight after lunch nowadays?
as compared to when i first entered the job. hehe.
OR a simple explanation cld be, its worn till its alr loose =x
i sure hope not. haha!
the only way to find out…. is to head for the fats weighing machine next sat.
FACIAL! my pimples are popping out alr, sick of it.

one phrase to keep in mind…..:
we don’t gain the weight in a few weeks/mths.
so don’t expect to lose the fats in a few weeks/mths.

now i feel like eating prataaaaaa. dead.